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Old year….old me

Well it isn’t long now till 2016!! This year has been one of the hardest I’ve gotten thru but look at me….I’m still standing! I’m a different woman to who I was 12 months ago….in size and personality.  I made new friends and lost them whilst also managing to alienate old friends and for that I’m sorry. You have no idea the regret but if it helps it wasn’t just you….I was an absolute bitch to everyone as I couldn’t cope with what was happening.  But for the record…I didn’t soft block you *sticks tongue out*. To those I lost….I truly hope you see this and know I wish you nothing but happiness.  To the very very few who were brave enough to stand up to me and stay and be there when I needed you….thank you for not giving up on me.  I know I was hard work and I’m sorry.

Here’s to 2016 ~ the year where I take control of my life without fear.  I vow to be a better daughter, sister, aunt, grand daughter, workmate, friend and hopefully girlfriend to some unfortunate soul!

To all those who have taken the time to read and comment on my ramblings…. Thank you. I hope you enjoy reading it as much as i enjoy writing it.

See you next year you gorgeous deviants xxx

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Christmas…..

Well its that time of the year again….a big fat man brings pleasure to billions of people in one night.  I remember when I use to absolutely love this time of year but this has been one fucked up year!!  Full of hospitals and drugs and sickness and loneliness and divorce and isolation.  I can say, with my hand on my heart, that I have never been so glad to see the back of a year in all my life!

I know I’m still broken but I can live with that.  I know I’m still not fixed yet and again I can live with that.  I also know that I just want nothing more than to curl up in a ball today and that I can’t live with.  I’m living with the hope that next year is different and that’s what’s getting me thru today.  That and my friends and family. 

So the smile is plastered on….

its okay broken ones…we’ll get thru this….don’t worry…it doesn’t last forever!

Let’s do this 🙂

Merry Christmas 😘

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all for you….

You come home from work, throw your briefcase on the table along with your keys, kiss me on the cheek and sink into the chair. I know instantly you havent had a good day. You loosen your tie, unbotton your jacket, lean your head back and close your eyes. I smile a slow smile. I know just how to make you relax. I walk towards you slowly. I stand at your legs. I place my hands on them and part them as i sink onto my knees. Your eyes open and they meet mine. I bite my bottom lip nervously. Ive never taken the initiative before. Ive always waited on you but i want to help you feel better. You see the hesitation in my eyes and smile that sweet smile that makes my insides melt. I take it as “Proceed” and i run my hands up your thighs. My hand lingering over your cock. My palm brushing over it. I feel it jump and im even more encouraged. My hand reaches your belt. Atleast the trembling has stopped i think and i unbuckle you. Our eyes still locked as i open and unzip you. Your cock now getting harder as i slip my hand in and release you. I keep the eye contact as i start to stroke you. My blood red nails standing out against your shaft as i work you. Long slow teasing strokes. You respond with a groan and your hips move. You’re now solid in my hand. Your tip begging to be licked. I lean forward, causing me to look over my glasses at you, my eyes now dark with desire as i flick my tongue over your tip. Fuck you taste so good. I need to have you in my mouth completely…and i do. I remove my hand and suck every inch of your hard shaft into my mouth. You groan and close your eyes. Your head thrown back now as i take you to the back of my throat. Your hands move to my hair. My ponytail now wrapped around your fingers holding my head. My hands hook onto your waistband. I want full access to you. I start to pull at them and you lift your hips to allow me to slide them off of you. I pull them to your ankles and move till im back betweeen your thighs. Your cock only leaving my mouth for a split second before i have you again. I run my hands up your naked thighs. My nails dancing over your skin till i reach your balls. I pop your now throbbing veiny shaft out my mouth and move my lips down the length of you. A trace of saliva being left behind as i reach your shaven smooth balls. I look up at you and smile. Your eyes meet mine in confusion. I take your balls into my hand and you growl when you feel my teeth on them. I rake them over you and the precum starts to ooze freely from you. Little nibbles on you causing your hips to buck and your tip to be soaked. I suck them into my mouth and you pull at my hair. My other hand gripping your shaft. Hard solid strokes as i tease and torment your balls. I feel your precum coating your shaft and i have to taste again. I keep your balls in my hand as i run my teeth up the length of your shaft and take you back into my mouth. Your precum instantly flowing down my throat. Fuck you taste so good. I want your cum. My eyes meet yours and you see the look i have. You know what i want and youre more than ready to give me it. Your hand wraps around my hair and you pull at me causing my head to move up and down your shaft to your rythmn. Your hips lifting and dropping as you hit the back of my throat over and over again. I feel you swell and my hands massage and grip your balls. “Give it to me” my eyes plead and my lips clamp around you. With one final thrust i taste you. I taste that salty cum hit my throat and i swallow greedily. Its not enough. I want it all. I wank the base of your shaft and dont remove my lips from your tip. Spurt after spurt coating my tongue as you arch your back and growl my name. When youre finally spent i slip you from my mouth and lick the one little drop that escaped off of my lips. I smile and ask….”so how was your day?”

 

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I want him. Oh how I want him. The way he grabs me and kisses me like hes devouring me makes my knees tremble. How he holds me oh so tight as he presses his hard body to mine. My breasts against his chest. My arms snaking around his neck as his fingers grip my ass to pull me even closer. I hear that growl in the base of his throat. That one that builds as the kiss gets harder and faster. Lust filled. Hungry. I feel myself melt into him. Then I hear my name on his lips. Oh my to hear me being gasped by you is something else. The ache spreads to where I need you….now. My nails scrape your scalp and neck as your hands move over my ass and up to the base of my back. The kiss getting deeper. The desire takes over. You can hear it. Feel it in the way I nibble your lip. The groans. The gasps. Your lips leave mine to trace along my cheek bone to my ear. “Time to make you mine” you growl. I become undone in your arms…..you dont have to make me yours as I already am….

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